Today Is The Day

Well, today is the day. Yep...I've committed the next 30 days of my life to the Whole30 diet, and I am SO excited! I made an announcement on Facebook, hoping none of my wonderful friends/family bring me goodies that I will have to shun. *sigh* I seem to have a lot of support, just like I figured I would. I've been thinking about the last couple years. We have had a lot going on, work, school, children, friends, moving, moving, and moving again...and the list goes on. I can actually look back to the time when the 'making better choices' thing started to go out the window. I had seen a picture of myself at the beach, and I thought...oh my LORD!!!...is that really ME?! I had to do something! So, I started Weight Watchers. I loved Weight Watchers! I ended up losing something like 28lbs...maybe more. I felt so good, and I really felt like my eating habits had changed! And, I really think they had. At the time I was a stay at home mom, so I had plenty of time to make meal plans, grocery lists, log all of my meals, etc. I was very good, even though we had annual Universal/Islands of Adventure passes...where you know there aren't many healthy choices. But, I would go, do the best I could do, and still lose! And it didn't take long before I had shed the pounds that were making me so incredibly unhappy! THEN...I started school. I decided after many years of not working, and not really having a 'niche', to do Cosmetology, and then get a job. I LOVED SCHOOL!!! I didn't love my new fast paced schedule, which would require me to pack my lunches, and my kids lunches, and still after running people to and from school, including myself, grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning, and so on. It was hard, and slowly but surely, I quit worrying about good choices, and just started doing easy. Sadly, McDonalds and many other fast foodie places became the norm again, and I was back up to where I started before I knew it! It did take a little while for me to see the changes...clothes not fitting, face breaking out again, the 'no pictures please' attitude. But, yes, it crept back up on me, and here I am now. Since then, I've done different diets, tried diet pills, meal replacement shakes, I even tried Weight Watchers again twice!! All to no avail. I think I just wasn't ready. Little did I know that each time I started a new diet or program, and did it a short time and then quit...I was just allowing myself to be a quitter, and mentally proving to myself that I wasn't worth enough to at least finish one of these diets so that I could feel better, mentally and physically. It really beat me down...so much, that I just felt like I could eat whatever, whenever, with no consequence. Or maybe I thought, oh well, I'm meant to be a big girl. LOL I don't know...but, it's time. I've made my mind up that I am ready to make these changes...for ONE month!! Maybe more if I don't die first. So, I will be journaling here, probably a little for accountability, but also for sanity. So, here's to the Whole30...body reset starting...3...2...now.